Tuesday, July 19, 2011

So Pain It Is...Let It Be...Let It Be...

Heal it may not...

Bodily hurt given, thrown here and there,

Myself got lost when the gift is heightened,

See I do, End it may,

But to the Expense of loss.

Every thorn again I have embraced, this time more bitterly...

Because of a man I love? Or because of My Nature?

Oh Only Mother knows my pain...

She never forsake me but healed me like there has never been...

Yet, scars remain, and I fret not, for it is the testament of my gift and Her love...

Mother I love You for Eternity...


Wednesday, June 8, 2011

The Return of The Virgin


TUESDAY, AUGUST 28, 2007

Remembrancer...

I had(and will continue) read Garth Nix's books with full of anticipation and awe. And I really like it so much. The adrenalin pumping(cliche')moments are,in my case,awesome and breathtaking! My favourite character is Lirael and she rocks! Guys,I suggest you all to go and grab one of his books and read it. Or you can borrow it from me! To Garth Nix,sir, I really adore your works and am really hoping for you to continue your work on The Old Kingdom. Good luck


FRIDAY, AUGUST 31, 2007

Grief and Pain...

what can i say about this?well,all i can think of is sadness and sorrow is a gift from god...why?lemme explain...

If we're not sad,how can we find a moment of happiness when it is shared with friends?how can we know who cares and who don't?

And through these moments i find inexplicable strenght and will to go on.

lol.how beautiful is this life.how complete i feel.i got nothing matter of factly,but the beauty i see in others and Nature herself makes me feel soo content and happy.my sorrow and pain is temporary,but my joy for life is forever.Satyam Shivam Sundharam


TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 4, 2007

Lost And Despair Hugs Me When You Left


Where Does Your Destiny Begin?And where do i go from here?Look,it's time for your passing...And now you must leave all behind...Come my dear...be one of My joy.And now you shall...

I'm so lonely as my mum had recently passed away.I am sad as my mum received Her divine love and entered His ever beautiful Kingdom.Yes,you have become Their joy mum,and I am happy for you.You left me unexpectedly,and at your grave,I cried the tears of not knowing when you'll return.I am but inside,I'm empty.You were there for me when I am lonely and I was there for you when you were feeling the same too.

But,who is going to talk to me when I'm back after school?Who is going to wait for me at home?When again can i go to the store and buy you lunch?When again can I see your joy and laughter whenever we were watching t.v together.

I am selfish,I know.But I need you the most dear mother.You had lost the battle with diabetes and depression.I want to see you healthy and I want you to hold and love my children...Now the Heavenly Being took you away...

Yes,you're not in pain anymore,you are in a joyous and blissful world with our dearest Father and Mother.As...
Come My dear,and be Our joy

But what will be of my joy?It has been taken.You're my joy...and i can't live any longer without you.I went home for you.But you're gone now...How can i live?

My dearest Mother,

My former teacher said that God loves those who suffered the most.And I believe her.I am terribly saddened by my past,but They gave me a will to move on.I am happy to be your son and I will be your son forever in every lifetime...

I miss you...

Tuesday, June 7, 2011


At the dissolution of things, it is Kala [Time] Who will devour all, and by reason of this He is called Mahakala [an epithet of Lord Shiva], and since Thou devourest Mahakala Himself, it is Thou who art the Supreme Primordial Kalika. Because Thou devourest Kala, Thou art Kali, the original form of all things, and because Thou art the Origin of and devourest all things Thou art called the Adya [primordial Kali]. Resuming after Dissolution Thine own form, dark and formless, Thou alone remainest as One ineffable and inconceivable. Though having a form, yet art Thou formless; though Thyself without beginning, multiform by the power of Maya, Thou art the Beginning of all, Creatrix, Protectress, and Destructress that Thou art.-Mahanirvana-tantra

He, O Mahakali who in the cremation-ground, naked, and with dishevelled hair, intently meditates upon Thee and recites Thy mantra, and with each recitation makes offering to Thee of a thousand Akanda flowers with seed, becomes without any effort a Lord of the earth. 0 Kali, whoever on Tuesday at midnight, having uttered Thy mantra, makes offering even but once with devotion to Thee of a hair of his Sakti [his female companion] in the cremation-ground, becomes a great poet, a Lord of the earth, and ever goes mounted upon an elephant.-Karpuradi-stotra



Listen O ye! My dear Child...

Once the bird(crow) lands it's feet on the Moon and Venus,

The subjugation and tyranny of Mahishasur's descendant will end...

The so-called peace religion will fall...

As their demon-god (the spiritual Mahishasur) will be born again...

And He Who rides the white horse...

Created from the Union of Shiva and Vishnu...

and blessed by Presence by the Devi...

so She would carry on the Final dissolution...

and so it shall be... 

I Am

At the dissolution of things, it is Kala [Time] Who will devour all, and by reason of this He is called Mahakala [an epithet of Lord Shiva], and since Thou devourest Mahakala Himself, it is Thou who art the Supreme Primordial Kalika. Because Thou devourest Kala, Thou art Kali, the original form of all things, and because Thou art the Origin of and devourest all things Thou art called the Adya [primordial Kali]. Resuming after Dissolution Thine own form, dark and formless, Thou alone remainest as One ineffable and inconceivable. Though having a form, yet art Thou formless; though Thyself without beginning, multiform by the power of Maya, Thou art the Beginning of all, Creatrix, Protectress, and Destructress that Thou art.-Mahanirvana-tantra


He, O Mahakali who in the cremation-ground, naked, and with dishevelled hair, intently meditates upon Thee and recites Thy mantra, and with each recitation makes offering to Thee of a thousand Akanda flowers with seed, becomes without any effort a Lord of the earth. 0 Kali, whoever on Tuesday at midnight, having uttered Thy mantra, makes offering even but once with devotion to Thee of a hair of his Sakti [his female companion] in the cremation-ground, becomes a great poet, a Lord of the earth, and ever goes mounted upon an elephant.





Listen O ye! My dear Child...


Once the bird(crow) lands it's feet on the Moon and Venus,


The subjugation and tyranny of Mahishasur's descendant will end...


The so-called peace religion will fall...


As their demon-god (the spiritual Mahishasur) will be born again...


And He Who rides the white horse...


Created from the Union of Shiva and Vishnu...


and blessed by Presence by the Devi...


so She would carry on the Final dissolution...


and so it shall be... 

Illusion




Genesis....

God Exists Never Exists Slowly In Sunny

Love




















break love love love....


love love love breaks....


this world no more has love love love....


for love is Lord Venus....the One Divine Mother....


LO-rd VE-nus


LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Incarnate as Pain...Yet Love I Give...


Honey 


Love is just a history that they may prove 
And, when you're gone, I'll tell them my religion's you 


When 'Punk'-tius comes to kill the king upon his throne, 
I'm ready for their stones 


I'll dance, dance, dance 
With my hands, hands, hands 
Above my head, head, head, 
Like Jesus said 
I'm gonna dance, dance, dance 
With my hands, hands, 
Hands above my head, dance together 
Forgive him before he's dead because 


I won't cry for you 
I won't crucify the things you do 
I won't cry for you, see 
When you're gone, I'll still be Bloody Mary 


(screams "love") 


We are not just art for Michelangelo to carve, 
He can't rewrite the aggro of my furied heart 
I'll wait on mountain tops in Paris cold 
Je ne veux pas mourir toute seule 


I'll dance, dance, dance 
With my hands, hands, hands 
Above my head, head, head, 


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Like Jesus said 
I'm gonna dance, dance, dance 
With my hands, hands, 
Hands above my head, dance together 
Forgive him before he's dead because 


I won't cry for you 
I won't crucify the things you do 
I won't cry for you, see 
When you're gone, I'll still be Bloody Mary 


(screams "love") 


Gaga, Gaga, Ga-ah-ah-ga, Gaga, Gaga, Gaga, Ga-ah-ah-ga, Gaga 
Dum dum da da da 
Dum dum da da da da-da da da da 
Dum dum da da da 
Dum dum da da da 
Dum dum da da da da-da da da da 
Dum dum da da da 


I won't cry for you 
I won't crucify the things you do do do 
I won't cry for you, see 
When you're gone, I'll still be Bloody Mary 


Whooaah (8x) 

Oh, Liberaté, mi amor


















Commentary: I love Yashua...I came as Mary Magdalene 
                       I adore and care for Yashua...as so I came as the Divine Mother...
                       I am the Bloody Revenge and Wrath of Divine!!!
                       Avenge I will for His murder!
                       And for that I came as the Destructrix Maha Kaali Maa!
                       Destroy I will the ignorant ones!
                       And then Liberate them from Illusion...
                       For I am the most merciful Mother of the Universe...


The Divine Mother loves your soul and adores it...love you Mama Monster!!! raw raw oooo lalaaaaa!


From a lovely Shakta named Tesh Chopra...greetings(Namaste) with light and love...



Monday, June 6, 2011

History of the Beginning

thanks Acharyaji...i really cried when i read your reply...you are with Maa that i can See...well She must have revealed my humble self to you...as you know...i am too poor materially as well...i stayed just because of my biological mother...her mental illness and the ignorance of her brethren denied her...she was chased out of her home and community just because she is married(here without legal proceedings; yes, I am a love child...or frankly a bastard) my dad tried his best to provide her and my family but alas! he was hot tempered...he was abusive as well...but not to me...but to my 8th sister...My Mother had 10 children(not counting the one she had in her first marriage and a miscarriage child...) that makes me technically the tenth child and truthfully the 12th....

my Mother was a Muslim, however, she wasn't staunch and did not learn anything about Islam...even so, she was close to Maa...there was once she told me that she had put her hand onto the Trisula at our humble temple...and since that she had the trisula mark on her palms...she died on February of 2007...i dearly miss her but now i think that she has become one with Maa and is loving me dearly...

my dad...yes...i am not close to him...but then again...he was the one who built the small and humble temple at our humble house...i just hope Maa forgives him for his wrong doings...he passed away on October of 2010...

my story is long and yet short...because Maa's Lila is eternal...comparing my pain to Hers(by being separated from many of Her children and the hurt She gets by the ignorance and denial of Her existence by Her children) is futile...even Shiva could not understand her pain.

yes Acharyaji...Maa wants me to tell you my story as you are one of Her True believers! my temple will always be visited by Maa...I had always felt Her presence at the small temple...because of my true devotion towards Maa...I became powerful...Mother gives us glory that is inexplicable...my glory was unknown to me...you See...i started my Bakhti to Her when I was 8 years old...Her first forms that are Revealed to me are Maa Durga, Maa Saraswati, and Maa Lakshmi...then 2 years after...She knew that i am ready for Her true Form! i was never afraid to look into Her image...i was deeply curios about Her...from why a beautiful handsome, irresistible man is on Her feet? is he a demon She had killed as well? I studied deeper by asking my Hindu friends at primary school and got my answer...that irresistible man is Shiva...Her divine husband....one by one...my many questions about Her is answered...till i was satisfied and moved on

then came puberty and my secondary sexual nature has manifested...this is where materialism and temptations lead me to forget Her...it is not the material world or the temptation itself is wrong but my forgetting Her is the worst sin i had ever committed in eons! then sexuality hit me...i felt guilty of my sexuality and deemed myself as un-pure,worthless, sinful to God...i thought that god is the father but i really forgot that My Mother is there outside of my house weeping for my return. they reason for the shame is that i had read a bible my 5th sister kept in her closet that makes me wonder and had shaken my faith...the bible was filled by an angry god...so big and fearful he is that i am really afraid of myself and that has immobilized me...remind you i must Prabhuji that this is not the case of Maa Kali! She is in Rupam fearful but nay! to me She is the most benevolent Deity out there in this Universe and whenever i go to Her, She gives me strength instead of fear!

I returned to Maa by the blessings of my family...my Mom,Dad and Sisters would always scold me and push me to pray to Maa...as a teenager...of course I am rebellious...i would always complain to Maa as to why must it be me to be worshiping Her? Maa is sweet and subtle yet Powerful...i Know that you Know about this as well...as a devotee i must admit that you speak infinite truths... because it is all from Her...

to put it shortly(as possible as this is super long story) i complained a lot to Her...about worldly stuff and my desire to always want a Sony PlayStation gaming console etc. etc.(by the way, She did provided me with that PlayStation...LOL) Then i evolved from materialistic to spiritualistic...i know you have too Acharyaji...that is why your light is Seen from afar...as far as in Malaysia...i am a gay person...because of the false "Patriarchal doctrines", i always deemed myself as dirty and unworthy...but only with Maa, whenever i see Her, She will in eternity console me and accept my very nature...no matter if I'm straight-gay-bi-lesbian-transgender-whatever...! this makes me question about the "authority" and "sovereign" of the other gods...specifically the Abrahamic religions...because of that i trust in Maa...

Maa and all of the foreigners see that in this country...Malaysia favors the Malay race and Islam...supreme divinity of others are irrelevant...hence with the good support of the government, that "pious" man demolished the temple when we were not there...at least if he did inform us or waited us, we could save Her image...but no...he demolished it when we were absent...! coward! for that i pray to Maa for revenge...but Maa said no Child...no revenge...I am not the angry gods of west...I am beyond all these...Maa left our place at January 2010 and She had also shown me signs and told me as well that i have to stay away from Muslims as they will make me suffer...
and lo and behold! a Malay (not sure a girl or a guy) send me evil spirits and specifically demons to weaken me

and so because of that...i was possessed and i forgot 1 week of my life because of the possession...the possession happened in the year 2008... starting to manifest the end of October 2008, became very bad beginning the 2nd week of November and got healed by January 2009...the story of the attacks by evil spirits is a long one...i shall spare you! i got healed only at a Kali Temple at some place in Kuala Lumpur. thank Maa for that! if not i would never survived!

that is why i wanna leave this negative black hole and migrate and get citizenships elsewhere where Maa is there as well...US would be good as i am currently finishing my American degree program from the Upper Iowa University...

Acharyaji...that is all i have for you...other stories are just secondary and unimportant...i am super sorry if i had disrupted your daily routines and for troubling you with this long message...all blessings and love to you...

Tesh Chopra...

Jai Maha Kali

Guru Deivaha...Told Me a Secret

1. Vegetarianism is an entirely optional, tapasya, and any well-intended tapasya, sincerely offered, will prove to be of benefit to one, spiritually. We are not all suited for the same tapasyas, and it is not for us to judge which tapasyas are suited to another person.
2. The vast majority of Hindus, whether in India, or elsewhere in the world, eat meat.
3. Gaudiya Vaishnavas misinterpret Sri Krishna's statement in the Bhagavad Gita, of four things that he will accept as offerings, and then present the slanted teaching that God will not accept meat — but Krishna did not at all indicate that the examples he gave were the *only* things he would accept as offerings, he merely used them as examples of how *small* an offering can be, if the offering is truly made from the heart. Also please realize that the so-called "translation" of the Bhagavad Gita that is so widely circulated by the Hare Krishnas or ISKCON members (who will not even call themselves Hindus), is not at all a fair or accurate translation of the scripture, but is instead essentially rewriting the entire scripture only to fit one very narrow (and incorrect) specific viewpoint, and the biased commentary on each mis-translated verse, is extremely misleading. They call it, "Bhagavad Gita As It Is," but a much more honest title would be, "Bhagavad Gita As It Never Was." You do not need to know any Sanskrit to see this. Just compare five or six other versions of the Bhagavad Gita, to their version, and it will instantly be clear to you that they have not produced a fair or accurate translation or commentary.
4. Remember also that, in the actual Mahabharata, right before the Bhagavad Gita commences (see Parva 6, Section 23), Krishna instructs Arjuna to pray for victory, not to him, but instead, directly to our Divine Mother. Arjuna immediately does so, calling Maha Kali one and the same as Brahman, the Supreme Divinity. Our Divine Mother then appears before Arjuna, in the presence of Krishna as well, and grants the boon of victory in the upcoming battle (which represents our own struggles in life). Our Divine Mother tells Arjuna that Krishna will be a reliable guide, a helper to him. When Krishna speaks in the Bhagavad Gita as if he were the Supreme Divinity, it is only because he was then in samadhi with our Divine Mother, so then it was not him speaking to us, but rather, it was really Her. Even the Vaishnava upa-Purana, Kalki Purana, takes a very surprising break from glorifying Lord Hari (Vishnu), when, in Chapter 29, the hearer of the purana finally says to the seer and teller of the purana, you only glorify Lord Hari so far, "but surely you know the truth of the matter" about the Supremacy of Maya-Devi (Kali). In response, the seer of the purana relates to us the tale of a king who was a lifelong devotee of Lord Hari. The king had grown old, and now he was finally seeking liberation. What did the king do? Well, for once, he did not pray to Vishnu. Instead, he went off to solitude in a forest, and, in order to finally gain liberation, he prayed instead to Maya-Devi, Kali, calling Her, "the Cause of Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva, and the Truth to be known by the Vedas!" We see Lord Rama, too, praying to Maha Kali, for one hundred pages, in the Adbhuta Ramayana. Never anywhere, in any Hindu scripture at all, though, do we either see Maha Kali praying to another deity, or advising anyone else to do so. That would be impossible, because She is in fact the Supreme Divinity. So, do not worry yourself over what some Vaishnava thinks about something or tells you about something, because even their own scriptures actually state that it is Maha Kali Who is the Supreme Divinity. Why join them in praying to deities that are themselves praying to Kali, when you can simply pray directly to Kali, yourself?
5. In Purana after Purana we see references to hunters, and rarely are they ever condemned.  Certainly we know that animal sacrifice is part of Vedic tradition.
6. The Devi Mahatmyam itself, the scripture most dear to our Divine Mother, opens with the tale of a king who lost his kingdom and in order to leave it without shame, told everyone that he was going on a hunting expedition.
7. The Srimad Devi-Bhagavata Mahapurana, as well as the Kalika upa-Purana, both very clearly state that the offering of an animal to our Divine Mother, is no killing at all. Of course you should offer any food at all first to Kali, at least by saying a mantra to Her, before consuming it yourself.
8. Manu Smriti, Hindu law, is absolutely clear (see 5:30 and 5:36) that the eating of meat first consecrated to God, is acceptable for every Hindu, including priests, every day.  In fact, Manu Smriti directly states that God created some creatures to eat, and others to be eaten.
9. Remember, please, that a goat has absolutely no more chance of attaining Moksha than does an eggplant. Also, Mother's Energy is present in both animal and vegetable, and we engage in destruction whether we eat either — and as Krishna said, everything born must die (including even him, he died; only our Divine Mother is eternal and unborn), and so "the wise grieve neither for the living nor for the dead."  If we are not to grieve for our own dead human relatives, then how much more we ought not to grieve over the death of a goat!
10. Ramakrishna Parahamsa, the great Hindu saint, taught that it is better for a man to eat pork, but have love of God in his heart.
11. Some people are starving in the world, not because people are meat, but instead because people are selfish with what they think is "their" money, and they spend it all on gratifying themselves and their egos, instead of living a simple life, and sharing generously all their resources not needed for their own basic existence, with others who are in need.
12. Eating meat gives strength and energy that eating fruits and vegetables does not, and is very much required by people who have low energy levels, depression, and many other illnesses.
13. No consensus exists among doctors regarding the long-term health effects of meat consumption. Dr. Robert Atkins was famous for his work in documenting how the consumption of too many carbohydrates is the primary cause of obesity, diabetes, and heart disease — and how changing our diet to instead consume more meat, reverses all those ill health effects.
14. One of Kali's Thousand Names translates in part as, "She Who Loves Meat."
15. Now go enjoy some good goat curry if you wish! And if you wish to become a vegetarian, as an optional personal tapasya, then of course that would fine as well, but it is not in any way required, and nor is it a tapasya that is appropriate or even suited to the health of most people.

Blessings,
Acharyaji

JAI DEVI MAHA KALI MA

Pehli Nazar Ko Salaam...(Mein Pyar Teri)


Thanks Acharyaji..it's 6.18 am in Malaysia...greetings...i really appreciate it..will read it on my bed...My resting abode is when i am Shava and is Holy...

I wish to migrate to Canada and continue my education in the US...the US is appealing to me because of Divine Beings such as you, Acharyaji...

Here in Malaysia...I always would cry because of the heavy and unbearable negativity this country has collected...it's like a pot full of negativity...it is ONLY by Her grace that I am surviving till now...I hope by praying to Her with Bhakti i would eventually go to the US or Canada or anywhere that is save. true that it is save if Maa is there for you but i wish to be also in action and not to trouble Her as She needs not only help me but others as well...I am not saying to Her let me go...but...i am saying..."Maa, with this i sacrifice my time and self without You so as You can help others..." the separation is painful but I am pretty and infinitely confident that Maa is waiting for me at US, Canada....India is my Final resting place. I also know that by reciting the Devi Mahatmyam...my wishes will come true...but that is NOT the reason why I am doing it...i do it as a mode of conversation to Our Dear Mother. Acharyaji...I have no idea why I am telling you all this...I feel that I can trust you as you are like my own Brother...or Father(not that you're old but...well...you seem to look like a Father) Anyways...please apologize my childishness and attachment to you...i may have troubled you...Maa forgive me too for doubting Her...I am but a human, full of Avidyas and Flaws.

Jai Maha Devi Mangla Kali...

Tesh Chopra

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Divine Mother

adiparashakthism

1. I move with the Rudras and also with the Vasus,
I move with the Adityas and all the Gods.
I support both Mitra and Varuna,
Indra and Agni and the two Ashvins.

2. I uphold Soma the exuberant;
I uphold Tvastar, Pusan, and Bhaga.
I pour wealth on the offerer of oblation,
the worshiper and the pious presser of Soma.
3. I am the ruling Queen, the amasser of treasures,
full of wisdom, first of those worthy of worship.
In various places the divine powers have set me.
I enter many homes and take numerous forms.
4. The man who sees, who breathes, who hears words spoken,
obtains his nourishment through me alone.
Unrecognizing me, he yet dwells in me.
Listen, you who know! What I say is worthy of belief.
5. It is I myself who announce and utter the tidings
that Gods and men alike rejoice to hear.
The man I love I make increase in strength.
I make him a priest, a sage, or a learned seer.
6. It is I who draw the mighty bow of the God,
that an arrow may pierce the hater of the Holy Word.
Among the people I arouse the struggle
and I have permeated Earth and Heaven.
7. At the world's summit I bring forth the Father.
My origin is in the Waters, in the ocean.
Thence I am spread through all existing worlds
and even touch the heaven with my forehead.
8. I breathe out strongly like the wind while clasping
unto myself all worlds, all things that are.
I tower above the earth, above the heavens,
so mighty am I in my power and splendor!

devi_trinity

Monday, March 21, 2011

Fallacy of Hatred

kalimotherAnd for once…
they cometh and with anger,
curses the natural being.
Condemning them to unreal,untrue eternal condemnation…
Ignorant of the True One,
they turn into demons,
filled with hatred and prejudice.
That killing of their unwanted is canonical.
Foolish fools! Ye now art demons!
Pray I to You, Mother,
for let not they dominate me. 

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

When She Searches…


She ran and never look back,

Searching for the One called Elusive,

Neither knowing nor realizing,

It is within…the Divine dwells…

That unfortunate union beckons Avidya,

For he kept her unknowing and desperate,

He forces and bounds, for there may be no escape,

Yet she is free from his clutches…

And now she yearns for that unbeing,

That world of no suffering,

She ran and cut off all her limbs,

So that she will be free from all burden…

Monday, March 7, 2011

The Lazy Dweller

He’s so lazy he can’t dream…yet he can’t speak!

The dreams of future he can’t see,

Nor hear can he…

And for that he can’t be,

As the others were meek,

He was ignorant and immodest…

Realizing not his flaws,

Undo not his deeds,

He went along unbeknownst…

Search The Universe of WWW Desuuuu!!!

The Seer...(as if)