Rejection

I do not handle or accept rejection easily. I wonder why it is hard for someone or for me to accept a no from someone, say someone I like? I just don't understand why some hot people out there are so vain and consider the less attractive, be it personality wise or your physical composition. Why are you stuck up to yourself that you'd rather make love to yourself than simply just accepting a friend request? Of course you're a model and you're greater than God... Go and shit in your own freaking pants you moron!

LOL! I am seriously a kind of person who do not take rejection lightly. Well, I suppose these kind of online rejection do really tick me off. Well all I can do now is suck it up and whine all about it here in my blog.How silly one can be. However, the female population are more friendly. They are soo cool and like to make as many friends as they could. They are more vain yes, but never egotistical. Guys, especially those who are above the "normal" line of physical attractiveness, and especially the gay crowd, think they're too good for themselves and denied others the space to shine.

Honestly, I am a looker myself. I think I am attractive because whenever I go out with my friends or alone people look at me. Well, that's rather egoistical of me but that was just a fact. I do not go out and reject all of those who are less attractive than I am. This goes down to the truth that I am a friendly and nice person. I despise haters, who impose their faith and beliefs on others and curse or annihilate others that don't share their same interests or beliefs. I despise those ego-centric and ethno-centric kind of people. But I'm not allowed to despise, it is forbidden in my religion and spiritual understanding.

Enough said, I am going to leave all this behind and strengthen my faith in humanity's love. By the way, I haven't met my boyfriend who is a model as well. I hope he is not as what I imagined him to be.

My Dreams

Dreams have many meanings. For some, it is just a dream. Psychologists have interpreted dreams in many ways possible, such as dreams are a way of your subconscious mind telling you what's lacking in your life.

Well, that is true... But dreams also bring some hidden prophecies. I am not sure of its eligibility but there are many dream interpretation books out there. Silly to me it seems but recently, during my late teenage years,(around 18-20) I got dreams that are rather scary and foreboding. I always got these dreams about doomsday and crap.

At first I do not really believe in it but the recurrences are rather disturbing. Is it a warning sent to me? Am I a psychic? All of these questions still haunt me to date. For now, I think its wise to keep a dream diary which I've done so and here's an example of a dream I received recently:

There was me and my friends and the environment outside of my house. The scene is very much like that of a movie(perhaps I watched a horrible one before bed?). The sun was non-existent and every one was crying out loud at me. I woke up pondering about this dream.

Who in this world would get dreams like these? Perhaps psychics...Gosh I really need to keep in touch with one...