Half Moon to Away from Lilith

The Moonlight is Half,

She looks Divine,

Missing the Moonlight...

Seeing Her makes me Sad...

So Sad, that I cry...Day, Night, and Eternity.

Pain and Her Joy

In this happiness, my heart cries in joy...
It then manifested in the gross state as tears...
They call it 'tears of joy'.

Oh, how thankful I am for all these happiness,
For they never fail to remind me...
That in my misfortune and sadness,
I will always be blessed with the rewards of joy.

Happiness is fickle it seems,
Yet I find it hard to believe,
As She is more so of a teacher...

A teacher Who teaches me to be strong,
And persevere...in times of Her absence,
With the absence, then only I can find myself...
Manifested...

Aversion of the Self

I have denied myself...

In a simple tragedy,

Disregarding that my life is safe and sound,

Never looking at the Anima,

Shouting at me "It is I, Shri",

"Your dearest Mother, ignore this mental dystonia!",

"Son, be the very Nature and Spirit you are, the essence of Aum",

Aum, by Heidi Lee

"For you and others are very dear to Me"...

Commentary: This is a personal reflection I have observed and felt as I went through a trauma recently that has nothing to do with ego-dystonic homosexuality. However, with my mental state and condition, I have associated that trauma with my being gay and all that jazz. This is so hurting for a self-affirming gay individual like me. Indeed, many factors are involved here, and it is important also to take note (in psychological sense) that traumas can trigger associations (negative-associations) that would hurt any individuals no matter what their orientation or gender identity(ies) are.

This Akashic Record post is open to the public(however, the dealings of the matter is of "adult" nature, argumentative...LOL) but please be nice and considerate should you find this offensive...This is a safe space for me, both personally and publicly, to share my thoughts and inspirations from the Divine.

The term Akashic Record and Her meaning is wide. There are also alternative views and definitions of what is an Akashic Record. Google it up and you'll get the picture... :D

I humbly agree any disputes that this is not Akashic but some beautiful individuals believe that any of our thoughts and inspirations will be recorded in the Akasha...and I truly believe in that.

What are the Akashic school of thoughts view on homosexuality? Here's a link...xoxo...

http://lovelightwithin.blogspot.com/p/quan-kwan-yin-homosexuality.html

I wish to end this with love and light...And I extend my love and light to All in the Universe...

Jai Mata Di!!!

So Pain It Is...Let It Be...Let It Be...

Heal it may not...

Bodily hurt given, thrown here and there,

Myself got lost when the gift is heightened,

See I do, End it may,

But to the Expense of loss.

Every thorn again I have embraced, this time more bitterly...

Because of a man I love? Or because of My Nature?

Oh Only Mother knows my pain...

She never forsake me but healed me like there has never been...

Yet, scars remain, and I fret not, for it is the testament of my gift and Her love...

Mother I love You for Eternity...